DO NOT DISTURB

Everything happens in these 4 walls,
but I can take a hammer and crash them all.
Then you'll hear (what I scream about to tears).
Then you'll know (where all pain goes.)

What room can I better crash than this one?
The one I painted with words.
What room can I release myself in better than this one?
The one that has the sign,
"DO NOT DISTURB!"

I found my place in a hotel.
I sit back and play,
when things don't go well.
Then you'll believe (all of my grief).
Then you'll say ("Today's not her day.")

So do not disturb.
DO NOT DISTURB,
DO NOT DISTURB me today.

Life's No Movie

Life's no movie.
There's no pause or stop you can press.
Life's no movie.
No recorded DVD or VHS.
There's no such thing
as a movie screen.
What happens in this world
is what you see.
Life's no movie,
so why pretend?

Slow down, look down.
Just look around-
things are moving in a fast pace.
It's like the only things sane now
are the creatures below our faces.

Look up, look down, look away-
people say.
Look up, look down, look away-
and they say.
Look up, look down, look away-
look away.

In Love With Your Soul

Oh, I'm covered up in your blood.
You're covered in mind.
And doesn't it feel good?
Oh, tell me, does it feel good?

You hold my hand.
I've fallen in love.
But tell me, is it right?
Is it right, tonight?

You're holding me tight.
You make my dreams take flight.
Try hard as a might,
I dare not let go.
Cause it's hard to let go.
Why did I wait?
All to see what you'd create.
And now it's too late.
I've fallen in love with your soul.
I'm in love with your soul.

Oh, let me cry my tears
while you cry yours.
They're innocent.
They're so innocent.
With the touch of your soul
I freeze.
It's true. It's all too true.

You're so quiet
when you whisper in my ear.
I can't deny it,
it's all too clear.
Morning's coming.
The sun is rising.
Ever it is too lovely.
It's all too exciting

You Flew Away

I remember that day.
We both felt the same way.
The last time I saw your face.

You were so beautiful.
So wonderful.
It was a miracle.
Just waiting to happen.

And sometimes I don't feel like crying,
just laughing.
It makes me happy.
And I'm finding
it was just natural-
you flew away.
Oh, so natural-
you flew away.

I like reminiscing.
I try now, confessing.

You were such a blessing.
Right now you're resting.
So softly, so calmly.

Like a bird
you flew away.
And I knew
it was to happen someday.
And it's true
sometimes I may not feel okay.
But it's you
I dream of all day, everyday.

I see right now you're resting.
And confess now,
you're a reminiscence.

Ritratto

She has a cool cream face.
One that no one can replace.
It's brought me so much disgrace.
It's ridiculous.
She has a wonderous smile.
One that's only worth while.
She's a Mona Lisa's child.
The beauty is atrocious.

Portrait
She's in every painting
Da Vinci to Monet
It's amazing.
Portrait
it's all I see.
She's always in your arms.
If only it were me.
But you just forget my notions.
Every time you see the portrait.

Dipingi il ritratto.
Cuando vede
What can I do?
There's too much insanity!

She has the lust of Aphrodite.
Every move is to your liking.
The way she kisses is all you miss.
How can love be like this.
Lei e` sempre nella tu braccia.

I'm Your Everything

When you're down and blue, I'llbe there tohold you.
When there's nothing you can do, I'll be sure to help you through.
That's the way it should be.
That's the way it could be...

I'm your butterfly floating through your Spring.
I'm your precious bird with a song to sing.
I'm your helping hand when life isn't easy.
Yes, I'myour everything.
I'm your everything.

By the sea, you're lonely.
You could use a friend.
So if only God has an angel sent.
You need love and care.
I will always be there.
That's the way it is.
That's just how it should be.

The Beautiful Woman

This poem is dedicated to my loving friend, Edith "DeDee" K. Johnson. I
love you, I miss you. Lei e` persona bella.

I didn't know how much love surrounded me.

The way she spoiled me tenderly.

Her eyes a vivid blue.

The fluent German accent is true.

Her loving ways are in my heart.

Her hugs are wide like the sky.

Her skin as gentle as the rain cries.

Her spirit flows through me.

It never dies.

The beautiful woman is so calm.

She retells the time she held me in her arms.

The dreams she's left for me are in my palm.

Such a beautiful woman is never gone.

Curse

You leave me hanging onto your word.
My soul is clanging on a curse.
I've given you everything,
but you're still not happy.
What person should I start being?
How can I stop this from happening?

I sing a song with no words- you're my voice.
I have to suffer along with your curse- I have no choice.
I feel so numb with pain-you're my blood.
I feel so dumb and insane.
There's no more love.

You play games with my heart.
I'm waiting for the day I fall apart.
What you have; you can't give.
If there's no air in this world; I can't live!

Curses!
Spells!
As you live in a heaven
I burn in a living hell.
Fir burns.
Can't you see, oh, baby,
your love hurts?

Capture Me

(I know this is short, but here it goes...)

If I could breathe into your life
I could revive myself.
And if I could see through your eyes
I could block all the blindness of hell.

Capture me and never let me go.
Make me see all that you behold.
Have the rain outpour my tears.
Your sanity will overcome my fears.
I'm wishing you would pick up the fallen pieces.
Capture me until my love releases.

I Hate Holding Hands

I don't want to worry anymore.
I don't want you to know me for sure.
The door's open.
It's time for me to leave.

I don't want to hold your hand.
I hate holding hands.
Cause I know that will leave me.
I won't hold your hand.
Cause I hate holding hands
Knowing that hands will never hold me.

Your fingers are slipping.
They're always slipping.
My mind is tripping.
You're not listening.

Hands will never hold me.
Hands will never hold me.
Your trust will never hold me.

Touches

You and I
are in the dark.
We kiss good night
every part of love.
I'm a soldier, but I don't want to fight.
End my sorrow & make me fly.

A touch is all I need
to end my misery.
The light comes to me
and tells me everything.
I need to know
before you go.
You don't have to leave.
Stay and be my remedy.
I, a slave is sold.
Secrets are told through touches.

I am, I am
touched by an angel.
I am, I am
able
to be touched, my angel.

Through touches
Through touches
anything can happen.
Through touches
Through touches
anything can be.

It Feels So Real

I hit the ground
but don't remember falling.
I hear such a sound
but nobody calls me.

My love,
I need you.
My love,
where are you?

Cause it feels
like a hundred years,
but it's only been a minute.
I can't breathe.
I can't believe this feeling.
It feels,
It feels so real.

I dream all of the time
without closing my eyes.
With my misery lost,
treasure I find.

My love,
you hold me.
My love, you never know it.

I can't breathe (this air).
I can't see (nothing's there.)
I can't be without you.
I can't be without you.

I hit the ground,
but don't remember falling.
I hear such a sound,
but nobody calls me.

2005 Standard

Just considered a whore.

Everything is sex.
Everything is lust.
Every two words are cussed.

Ignorance.
belligerence.
Tragedy.
Extosy.
Most things are ungodly.

Pimps, sluts, and hos.
Kiss and tell.
Young wedding bells.
The devil offers hell
and we go.

Stranger

You said you'd never ever leave my side.
We'd be together, always forever,
but you lied.
You denied... it all.

You're nothing but a stranger.
You always were-
I just never realized it.
You're nothing but a stranger
and you're standing outside waiting to come in.

But you were always the sunshine in my life.
Where did the rain come from?
Why did the rain come?
You were always the host inside.
You're suddenly the stranger, you're now the stranger.

Swimming In Hot Water

Have you ever experienced life as being a sea of hot water?
You were struggling and striving for your island
but it never came into view.

Have you ever felt like everyone was leaving you behind?
Like your mother didn't care,
your father acted like he wasn't there,
and you were pushed into the room of tears?

At times you'd wish life was just a game
where it didn't matter if you won or lost.
But life was reality and not a dream
where you could just wake up and be alright.

Did you ever see yourself drowning in hot water?
Running from something (not chasing you).
Not being with someone ( when you wanted to).
Not be able to do what you desire to do.
Gasping for breath and it not coming through.

But then through the steam and lost dreams
comes a raft.

A raft of faith, security, love, and peace

you've been dying for and now have.

Life doesn't have to be a miserable sea.
It can be a sunset at the beach.
Then you'll see
swimming in hot water isn't so bad.

What I Want

I am certain.
There's no doubt.
When you lift the curtain
you see what it's all about.

Beautiful,
pretty ones
lead this world to the Sun.

Wishing to be perfect-
if only I could see
someone who has it like me.
I want you,
but I wonder if it's true-
is this ... what I want?

Heavy beauty is what they say
makes a girl who she is today.

When they pass me they just stare.
Laughing- not caring who's there.
If only I could have my way.

Is this really, is this really me?

Is this what I want?
Is this what I want?
No, this isn't what I want.

Nowhere To Go

I've been hitting hard
hoping things won't fall apart
but here they go again.

If you want the truth
ever since I lost you
you've taught me things I've never known.
When I'm down and full with doubt
will I spend another day without you?
Or I'll have nowhere to go.

When time runs out
& life has left me behind.
And I can't figure it out-
why I hurt inside?
I am guilty.
My foolish play
has left me no choice
'til this day.

And I've been wondering around
hoping things will change.
but I can see now
we'll just fade again.

Nowhere, nowhere, nowhere.
Take me somewhere, somewhere, somewhere.
Or I'll have nowhere to go.

Erase

If I could be more careful with my mistakes.
If I could follow rules that I couldn't break.
If I'd fall asleep
I wouldn't wake
I wouldn't wake up, no.

If I could erase
what I said
that hurt you
that burned you
I would.
If I could retrace
what I did
that choked you
and broke you
I would.

If I could
I would
If I could
I would
you know I would.

Let's Hold Hands

I see someone in the mirror
who doesn't look like me.

They have brown eyes & black hair.
You're asking who could I possibly see.

I see a girl of different colors.
I see a boy that loves others.

So can we be together forever?
Let's hold hands, let's hold hands.
Can't we all get along?
Let's hold hands, let's hold hands
before forever's gone.

I see somebody across the street
who doesn't act like me.

They have a Swedish accent
and seem mighty fair.
Who could I mean?

I see a nation of different colors
but I wanna see a nation that loves another.

Before time leaves, before time leaves.
Before we'll never have a chance-
let's hold hands.

Broken Is Fair

You
oh, you took my dreams and left out the door.
You
oh, you
could have been something more
than just who you were.
Than just how you occured.

Broken is fair
when my dreams are shattered
nothing matters.
'cause you don't care
whether lives are played
mistakes are made
I swear,
when with you
broken is fair.

I
Yes, I
don't have to listen to what you have to say.
I
Yes, I rather spoil away
and I will.
Now, I will.

Broken is fair
broken dreams lie there on the floor.
You really don't care
if broken heart lie there
while you walk out the door.