New Year Resolution

This year was such a ride.
There were times when I wanted to die.
I got away with so many lies
but all I wanted was to be by your side.

The air was hard to breathe.
The moments were hard to believe.
And where will this road lead?
Hopefully to somewhere I don't want to leave.

Now I can't imagine my life without you
but with you, it feels like a dream.
You've tamed me to do what you want me to do
and you've set me free.
Are there any words to express how I feel?
Cuz sometimes I think your voice isn't real.
And all of those times I've wanted to change your life,
the day that I first saw you,
you changed mine.

I can't stay mad at you.
My heart wouldn't be happy with that.
Sometimes it does good to miss you,
but I'm miserable cuz you're the only thing I lack.
Baby, it hurts when you want what you can't have!


This year was such an experience.
There were times when it didn't make sense.
Day in and day out, we felt so intense.
But next year, I promise it'll be different.

Because We're Human

You know
we have to love,
we have to love
because
we're human.

You know,
we have to fight,
we have to fight
because
we're human.

Because we're human,
we're natural beings
We want to know everything
but we learn one way only
there's only some much we can begin to understand
Because we're human.

You know
we have to discover
we have to discover
cure and recover
why we're human.

You know
we have to analyze
we have to analyze
why we live such complex lives
because we're human.

Because we're human
We can be self destructive
and reluctant
We're a nuisance to the universal plan
All because
Only because
Just because
We're human!

I Hate Holding Hands (revised 2008)

I don't want to worry anymore.
I don't want you to know me for sure.
The door's open.
It's time for me to leave.

I don't want to hold your hand.
I hate holding hands.
Cause I know that you will leave me.
I won't hold your hand.
Cause I hate holding hands
Knowing that hands will never hold me.

We've touched before.
It was magic,
but how tragic,
I can't feel you anymore.

If we've ever cross the street
the cars would've run over me
and my heart
fell apart
And all you did was say that you're sorry...

Your fingers are slipping.
They're always slipping.
My mind is drifting.
You're not listening.

Hands will never hold me.
Hands will never hold me.
Your trust will never hold me.

So Close Together

Life's moving so fast.
I can hardly keep up.
I thought that that love would last
but he said he's had enough.

Now I'm with you.
It's only been a month
when I ran into you.
I hope this is enough.

It's so close together
the times,
the truth and the lies
losing the people I find.
We're so close together
It's just you and me
It's so hard to believe
that you're all I need.

The doors seemed to be closed
but they were wide open
ready for me to dream and hope
for something that God had chosen.

Now I look in the mirror
and I see myself
Reflections are much clearer
since he left.

But it's so close together,
the melancholy
and being happy
Wanting to cry then laughing.
We're so close together
There's an inner peace
I breathe air that's fresh.
You're all I need.

In the Name of God

My heart is made of stone
as I stand on this rock alone.
I am who I am
and I'll never change.
I'll always be the same
in the name
in the name of God.

Change me.
Mold me
into whatever You want me to be.
My life is yours.
I have no choice.
The angels in heaven rejoice...
Get the hell out of me.

My heart is now pure.
My mind is sure
that I can move on
and not linger along.
Today, I sing a new song
in the name
in the name of God.

Nights of Beer & Wine

Beer makes me queazy
like whenever you leave me,
but wine makes me high
like when you take me to fly.

The sky
is mine
tonight!

Beer is toxic to my blood
like the last time I was in love.
Oh, God,
I threw up!
But wine is so close and sincere
like whenever I have you near.

There's nothing to fear,
it appears.
The coast is clear.

So that night,
I drank and drank
my heart out
with your love.
It was so good!
So tonight,
let's get drunk
in love.
Won't it be so good?

Beer drives me crazy
like when I'm alone.
Wine rocks me to sleep like a baby.
The feeling's concrete like stone.

So on tomorrows' mornings
I want to wake up to you
as I see the sun's light.
I want to remember you
and the nights of beer & wine

Ring around the roses.

It's funny how the world goes

'round and 'round

without making a sound.



Eve should've never bit the apple.

Now look at what's happened.

Everyone has stopped laughing

'cause the joke isn't funny anymore.



But hey, I say

it's not too late.

There's always room for improvement.

Just go on ahead & do it.

Hey, you're not to blame.

It's all of our faults

mixed into one vault.

It's okay

let's just pray

that God gives us another day.



If you can't stand the heat,

then get out of the kitchen.

Get out of hell and fly to heaven--

it's your decision.

Dust to dust,

ashes to ashes.

A man is a man is a mind full of passion.



I see a crow above in the sky.

Shoot the bird down no matter how high.

Love prevails

after hate has had its way.



Thanks be to God

that we have another day.

We have another day!

My Favorite Color

I stared at the sky for a while.
I wished upon the Northern Star to see you.
Maybe you'd have wings this time.
Maybe your shadow would come up my street.

I'd know your eyes anywhere.
That zealous color God put there.
All of the world has seen it
and heaven can't miss it.

I cried for a while
because after I realized your significance,
you were gone to a better place.
I was only a child,
full of innocence,
but I regret those years that went to waste.

But I'd know your smile anywhere.
That wonderful expression none can compare.
All the world has forgottten it
but you wouldn't be the golden sun without it.

I tried to forget you for a while,
but you keeping haunting me,
even now.
But I could never learn to hate you--

My favorite color, blue.

Power Possessed

You say you can read my mind.
Well, I believe you can.
If you try,
it's not so hard to understand.

You say you can touch the sky
with just one hand.
It can't be that high
or too far from the land.

Dreams and nightmares are all in the mind.
Love and hate share the same thin line.
Men and women are of the same kind.
Life and death both depend on time.
And sometimes there's no way to decipher.
Sometimes you have to suffer.

Sometimes worst is better
'cause there's no way you can get lower.
Live & learn how to be together
but space is between us
just because.
There's no definite reason
why

Dreams and nightmares are all in the mind.
Love and hate share the same thin line.
Men and women are from the same kind.
Life and death both depend on time.
I believe you're right.

We could all be wrong
but wisdom comes along
Now we're where we belong.

You say you know my heart.
Well, I believe you do
'cause a whole is nothing but a bunch of parts
like me and you.

You say you can have me.
Well, I believe it's our fate.
Our destiny.
You can do anything
whatever it may be.
Power is everything
just believe.

For my mom...

Not all mountains touch the sky.
Not all birds are made to fly high.
Not all treasure is silver & gold.
Not all gardens have a rose.

Not all stars are visible to the eye.
Not all answers satisfy why.
Not all words are able to be told.
Not all feelings can be shown.

But with love anything is possible,
Everything is possible.

Love & Pain

Pain is just an emotion
riding on the locomotive
of my life.
Pain is just a feeling
that I keep concealing
cause of my pride inside.

But with you,
I've opened up
all of the windows that have been shut.
With you,
I'm not afraid
to say what I want to say.
My words have become my best friends.

Cause...
Pain is nothing.
Pain is only something
when you've tried & tried
and have been pushed away.
Pain is non-existent.
Pain is only what it is
when you've cried & died
and have been buried in a grave...
Love is the same way.

Love is just a synonym
for when you want to be with them
just because.
Love is just a four-lettered word.
Something said or something heard
when you don't know what...

To say that I can't live without you;
it's not a lie.
(It's the God honest truth.)
That's my policy.
Just stay with me
and then you'll see.

My love, do you feel the same?
Love and pain.
Like the sun and rain,
they can always change.

Love is nothing.
Love is only something
when you've tried and tried
and have been pushed away
Love doesn't make sense.
Love is just the way it is
when you've cried and cried
and they still walk away!...

There's Always Tomorrow

I've spent all of this time
searching myself, drawing a line
that I will soon cross.
I keep dreaming everyday
hoping that you'll come
and take me away.
Let's get up and run.

But it's all in my mind.
When I look in your eyes
cause you just don't see.

There's always tomorrow.
There's always another chance
to erase my mistakes and start over.
I'm trying so hard to make you understand.
There's always tomorrow.
I'll never run out of time
to cry and beg and feel sorrow.
I'll do anything to make you mine.

I feel so frustrated.
I want to raise my head and scream.
You say, " What do you mean?"--
Life's so complicated.

It's staring you in the face.
What more will it take
for you to see?

Even if they say
that tomorrow's only a day away,
I still want you anyway
every single day.
Why can't it be today?

Melancholy, My Friend

I see the people walking.
The happy faces they have.
They say I should laugh,
but what is so funny, may I ask?

Sometimes melancholy is good.
Sometimes tears can wipe away the pain.
It´s best with a friend like you.
Sometimes it's best not to look.
Sometimes it´s nice to lay insane.
It´s best with a friend like you.

I hear the children playing.
The innocence they possess.
They ask why am I waiting
but it´s something they'll never get.

Sometimes melancholy is good.
Sometimes tears can wipe away the pain.
It´s best with a friend like you.
Sometimes it's best not to look.
Sometimes it´s nice to lay insane.
It´s best with a friend like you.

Oh, oh
and I grow tired
of the flames and the fires.
You want me to reach higher,
but falling is my desire.

Sometimes happiness is good.
Sometimes joy can wipe away the pain.
It's best not to be with you.
Sometimes it's best not to get hooked.
Sometimes it´s nice to get away
and leave a friend like you.

My Plea

Your Honor,
may I approach the bench?
I Don't want to make this any harder.
I tell you, he's innocent.

Let him go.
It's me you want.
I'm here to let you know
that all I wanted was love,
a desire that hurted me so-
my heart should be the one locked up.

My defendent,
How can I apologize?
We were fine as friends.
Now our friendship is jepordized.

Because of me,
you give a face that's undesirable to see.
A haunting expression-
I've learned my lesson.

Let him go.
It's me you want.
We've gone as far as we were to go.
The ride was more than I dreamed of
A desire that soothed me so
My heart should be locked up.

It's such a crime-
all of the time
that we spent together
was gone in a drop of a dime.
but you'll be mine
always and forever.

I´m letting you go.
It's me that you didn't want.
I'm here to let you know
that all I wanted was love-
a desire that inprisoned me so
but my heart has given up.

OH, my love,
I've given up...

Too Long

This isn't normal.

I've never cried before

over something as usual

as a boy,

but yet, now I'm crying for you.



My tears roll down like memories

when all day & night, it was just you & me.

I can't get you out of my head.

There's no way I'll ever forget.



You've got me;

there's no way I can sleep.

You haunt me in my dreams.

You got me

to where I can't breathe

until you see

the love I have inside of me.



This is too crazy;

I've never felt hopeless before.

I'm so dependent on this drug

that soothes me like a baby

and I only want more.



You've got me;

there's no way I can sleep.

You haunt me in my dreams.

You've got me

to where I can't leave

until you give me

love so passionately.



This isn't normal.

I've never waited this long

I didn't want to wait this long-

but now you're gone.

The Accident (I Thought We Weren't Going)

A Saturday night
it feels too good and so right.

We get into the car.
A few mintues and we've traveled so far
to only God knows where.

You kiss me.
You tell me
everything I wish to hear
You grab the wheel.
You change speeds
The adrenaline of fear.
You're in the wrong gear.

I thought we weren't going.
I though it was just only
one little kiss.
I never thought it'd be like this.
I thought we weren't going there.
I thought you said you didn't care.
But foolish me
I didn't see....it.

The flashing lights
of every fight
that made the night
a living hell.

As the light turns red then green,
I ask, "Why the hell you did this to me?"
It's so hard to breathe
especially when you try to scream!

We're falling, we're falling
off the bridge
and into the sea.
We say goodbye
to the city.
We're now holding onto our lives
desperately.
But before we die,
there's just one more thing...

I thought we weren't going.
I thought it was just only
one little kiss.
I never thought it'd be like this.
I thought we weren't going there.
I thought you said you didn't care,
but foolish me
I didn't see it.

I'm so lonely.
I thought it was just only
one little kiss
I never thought it'd be like this.
Now we've made it there
I thought you said you didn't care.
But foolish me.
Now I see it.

Cain & Abel

We've come here.

It's just the two of us.

Two brothers so dear

and just only one gun.



The sky's getting darker.

I feel the wind

blowing sharper

upon my skin.



What is the world coming to?

Abel, how can Cain do this to you?

Two sides clashing,

the world splits in two.

Human harmony is over.

Now what can we do?



We're gathered here-

6 billion boys and girls.

They panic in a fear

of the destruction of the world.

They rapidly disappear.

A universal holocaust,

but to them, it's never clear

that they're the cause.



The day is getting dim

and the night starts to fade.

Machines, deadly and grim,

are the sources to blame.


Oh, are you not your brother´s keeper?

There's no way you can leave him

to die

over a senseless fight.

There're no questions why.

It's just not right!

Until the Sky Breaks

To soothe the pain & memories.
I can imagine of a thousand places where I'd want to be-
only with you.
How about Sunday?
I will dream of you
and never wake
until the sky breaks.

I would change my life
just to see your face again.
I'd give up the fight for time
just to be with you, my friend.
Can't you see?
I know you can hear me
pray every night.

To lose my sanity for once.
There are a thousand thoughts to chose from
only about you.
How about just one?
I will break the rules
and never promise a swear (again)
until the sky breaks (in the end)...

I whisper.
I hope you listen.
I pray.
I you'll stay
until the sky breaks.

I haven't come up with anything to say.
There are no words to explain
what happened on that day.
Tell me if the feelings will eventually fade away;
most likely they'll stand on a reason to stay.

All we can do is cry.
All we can do is ask why.
All we can do is feel the pain inside
from losing you, from losing you,
unless there's something more that you want us to do.

We haven't come up with an answer.
We're just putting the pieces together
to figure out this mystery
of a tragedy
that will last forever.

All we can do is try.
All we can do is say goodbye.
All we can do is have the notion to fight
from losing you, from losing you,
unless there's something more that you want us to do.

And there you go up
to greet the sun.
If we had pleaded enough
you wouldn't have left so soon.
But what could you have done?
What can we do?

'Cause we don't
want to let go.
We loved you so.
And you'll never know...
how this will affect me and the rest of the world.


"To the victims of the Virginia Tech massacre. God bless and we'll never forget you."

Road Kill

I start out with one foot in the door.
I'm ready to leave
and I don't want to see you anymore,
if you can believe.

I scream out loud,
hoping someone will hear me
Cause you've held me down
long enough to kill me.

And I'm surprised
you've given me time
for a few last words.
I want to break out and be free like a bird.

But I've flown down.
It was too late for me to turn around.
And I never fel to realize it until
the car came speeding still.
And now I'm road kill.
Your love feels like road kill.

I wish I could turn back time
to help myself.
Maybe to save my life
and be my own help
and maybe end up with someone else.

But here I am
I feel like crap
and I'm trapped
Cause you've loved me so long like that.

So tell me what you want me to say.
I'll say,
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"