Love & Pain

Pain is just an emotion
riding on the locomotive
of my life.
Pain is just a feeling
that I keep concealing
cause of my pride inside.

But with you,
I've opened up
all of the windows that have been shut.
With you,
I'm not afraid
to say what I want to say.
My words have become my best friends.

Cause...
Pain is nothing.
Pain is only something
when you've tried & tried
and have been pushed away.
Pain is non-existent.
Pain is only what it is
when you've cried & died
and have been buried in a grave...
Love is the same way.

Love is just a synonym
for when you want to be with them
just because.
Love is just a four-lettered word.
Something said or something heard
when you don't know what...

To say that I can't live without you;
it's not a lie.
(It's the God honest truth.)
That's my policy.
Just stay with me
and then you'll see.

My love, do you feel the same?
Love and pain.
Like the sun and rain,
they can always change.

Love is nothing.
Love is only something
when you've tried and tried
and have been pushed away
Love doesn't make sense.
Love is just the way it is
when you've cried and cried
and they still walk away!...

There's Always Tomorrow

I've spent all of this time
searching myself, drawing a line
that I will soon cross.
I keep dreaming everyday
hoping that you'll come
and take me away.
Let's get up and run.

But it's all in my mind.
When I look in your eyes
cause you just don't see.

There's always tomorrow.
There's always another chance
to erase my mistakes and start over.
I'm trying so hard to make you understand.
There's always tomorrow.
I'll never run out of time
to cry and beg and feel sorrow.
I'll do anything to make you mine.

I feel so frustrated.
I want to raise my head and scream.
You say, " What do you mean?"--
Life's so complicated.

It's staring you in the face.
What more will it take
for you to see?

Even if they say
that tomorrow's only a day away,
I still want you anyway
every single day.
Why can't it be today?

Melancholy, My Friend

I see the people walking.
The happy faces they have.
They say I should laugh,
but what is so funny, may I ask?

Sometimes melancholy is good.
Sometimes tears can wipe away the pain.
It´s best with a friend like you.
Sometimes it's best not to look.
Sometimes it´s nice to lay insane.
It´s best with a friend like you.

I hear the children playing.
The innocence they possess.
They ask why am I waiting
but it´s something they'll never get.

Sometimes melancholy is good.
Sometimes tears can wipe away the pain.
It´s best with a friend like you.
Sometimes it's best not to look.
Sometimes it´s nice to lay insane.
It´s best with a friend like you.

Oh, oh
and I grow tired
of the flames and the fires.
You want me to reach higher,
but falling is my desire.

Sometimes happiness is good.
Sometimes joy can wipe away the pain.
It's best not to be with you.
Sometimes it's best not to get hooked.
Sometimes it´s nice to get away
and leave a friend like you.

My Plea

Your Honor,
may I approach the bench?
I Don't want to make this any harder.
I tell you, he's innocent.

Let him go.
It's me you want.
I'm here to let you know
that all I wanted was love,
a desire that hurted me so-
my heart should be the one locked up.

My defendent,
How can I apologize?
We were fine as friends.
Now our friendship is jepordized.

Because of me,
you give a face that's undesirable to see.
A haunting expression-
I've learned my lesson.

Let him go.
It's me you want.
We've gone as far as we were to go.
The ride was more than I dreamed of
A desire that soothed me so
My heart should be locked up.

It's such a crime-
all of the time
that we spent together
was gone in a drop of a dime.
but you'll be mine
always and forever.

I´m letting you go.
It's me that you didn't want.
I'm here to let you know
that all I wanted was love-
a desire that inprisoned me so
but my heart has given up.

OH, my love,
I've given up...

Too Long

This isn't normal.

I've never cried before

over something as usual

as a boy,

but yet, now I'm crying for you.



My tears roll down like memories

when all day & night, it was just you & me.

I can't get you out of my head.

There's no way I'll ever forget.



You've got me;

there's no way I can sleep.

You haunt me in my dreams.

You got me

to where I can't breathe

until you see

the love I have inside of me.



This is too crazy;

I've never felt hopeless before.

I'm so dependent on this drug

that soothes me like a baby

and I only want more.



You've got me;

there's no way I can sleep.

You haunt me in my dreams.

You've got me

to where I can't leave

until you give me

love so passionately.



This isn't normal.

I've never waited this long

I didn't want to wait this long-

but now you're gone.

The Accident (I Thought We Weren't Going)

A Saturday night
it feels too good and so right.

We get into the car.
A few mintues and we've traveled so far
to only God knows where.

You kiss me.
You tell me
everything I wish to hear
You grab the wheel.
You change speeds
The adrenaline of fear.
You're in the wrong gear.

I thought we weren't going.
I though it was just only
one little kiss.
I never thought it'd be like this.
I thought we weren't going there.
I thought you said you didn't care.
But foolish me
I didn't see....it.

The flashing lights
of every fight
that made the night
a living hell.

As the light turns red then green,
I ask, "Why the hell you did this to me?"
It's so hard to breathe
especially when you try to scream!

We're falling, we're falling
off the bridge
and into the sea.
We say goodbye
to the city.
We're now holding onto our lives
desperately.
But before we die,
there's just one more thing...

I thought we weren't going.
I thought it was just only
one little kiss.
I never thought it'd be like this.
I thought we weren't going there.
I thought you said you didn't care,
but foolish me
I didn't see it.

I'm so lonely.
I thought it was just only
one little kiss
I never thought it'd be like this.
Now we've made it there
I thought you said you didn't care.
But foolish me.
Now I see it.

Cain & Abel

We've come here.

It's just the two of us.

Two brothers so dear

and just only one gun.



The sky's getting darker.

I feel the wind

blowing sharper

upon my skin.



What is the world coming to?

Abel, how can Cain do this to you?

Two sides clashing,

the world splits in two.

Human harmony is over.

Now what can we do?



We're gathered here-

6 billion boys and girls.

They panic in a fear

of the destruction of the world.

They rapidly disappear.

A universal holocaust,

but to them, it's never clear

that they're the cause.



The day is getting dim

and the night starts to fade.

Machines, deadly and grim,

are the sources to blame.


Oh, are you not your brother´s keeper?

There's no way you can leave him

to die

over a senseless fight.

There're no questions why.

It's just not right!

Until the Sky Breaks

To soothe the pain & memories.
I can imagine of a thousand places where I'd want to be-
only with you.
How about Sunday?
I will dream of you
and never wake
until the sky breaks.

I would change my life
just to see your face again.
I'd give up the fight for time
just to be with you, my friend.
Can't you see?
I know you can hear me
pray every night.

To lose my sanity for once.
There are a thousand thoughts to chose from
only about you.
How about just one?
I will break the rules
and never promise a swear (again)
until the sky breaks (in the end)...

I whisper.
I hope you listen.
I pray.
I you'll stay
until the sky breaks.

I haven't come up with anything to say.
There are no words to explain
what happened on that day.
Tell me if the feelings will eventually fade away;
most likely they'll stand on a reason to stay.

All we can do is cry.
All we can do is ask why.
All we can do is feel the pain inside
from losing you, from losing you,
unless there's something more that you want us to do.

We haven't come up with an answer.
We're just putting the pieces together
to figure out this mystery
of a tragedy
that will last forever.

All we can do is try.
All we can do is say goodbye.
All we can do is have the notion to fight
from losing you, from losing you,
unless there's something more that you want us to do.

And there you go up
to greet the sun.
If we had pleaded enough
you wouldn't have left so soon.
But what could you have done?
What can we do?

'Cause we don't
want to let go.
We loved you so.
And you'll never know...
how this will affect me and the rest of the world.


"To the victims of the Virginia Tech massacre. God bless and we'll never forget you."

Road Kill

I start out with one foot in the door.
I'm ready to leave
and I don't want to see you anymore,
if you can believe.

I scream out loud,
hoping someone will hear me
Cause you've held me down
long enough to kill me.

And I'm surprised
you've given me time
for a few last words.
I want to break out and be free like a bird.

But I've flown down.
It was too late for me to turn around.
And I never fel to realize it until
the car came speeding still.
And now I'm road kill.
Your love feels like road kill.

I wish I could turn back time
to help myself.
Maybe to save my life
and be my own help
and maybe end up with someone else.

But here I am
I feel like crap
and I'm trapped
Cause you've loved me so long like that.

So tell me what you want me to say.
I'll say,
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"

I Always Lose

So many letters written
but no response.
I'm tired of giving.
Let's keep moving on.

Cause no matter what I do
I can't get over you,
but the best thing to do
is try to make it through.

Everyday
I feel like giving up.
I don't want to get up
and face my doom.
Every night
when the world is hushed up.
And I feel out of luck
Cause I always lose.

So many days go by
and I've only progressed so far
And, please don't ask for the reason why
Cause I think I've known it from the start.

Cause no matter what I say
I can't get over the fact
that everything is okay
except what I lack.

So many people have someone
but I'm not one.
Love's no fun
when you can't turn around and see a face shine like the sun
Cause everyday I feel like giving up.

Hell of a World

He strapped a bomb to himself
whether to die alone or to kill someone else.
This place looks worst than hell.
Are we already there?

The cars are moving no more.
Pause for a moment for us to mourn.
And his mother's heart is torn... as well.
Tell me, are we already there?

The sun is disappearing.
No one is hearing
what I'm saying.
Hoping and wanting
for this hell to fade away.
The burning flames of everyday.

I step out into a cruel world
never unexpecting to get hurt,
while seeing the boys and girls
blossoming in this quarrel.

They can hear me screaming,
but they drown out the meaning.
Only trust deceiving
when they can.

And the world is like a laser
gleaming through the holes.
And its heartbeat is pounding faster.
It's just trying to save our souls.

A Farewell to the 2007 Class

I can't believe
that this is happening.
One more year
and you're out of here-
you're out of my life.

I can't believe
that this the end.
I'll have to say goodbye to you.
I don't know what to do.
A sacrifice-
I could lose my friends.

I can't believe
that you were there for me
Stuck with me through everything.
Even if the path was hard to see,
you gave me what I needed.

I can't believe it.
I don't want to believe it.
I won't believe it.

Valentine's 2007

And your love is like the never ending flame
that melts the candle within my heart.
How that I don't feel shame
when you whisper my name
as we lay in the dark.

And I thank God for this blessing to know you
even if it's only been a few weeks.
And all I want to do is hold you
and I want to show you
that the way I feel about you is deep.

If only I could have a chance
to let you see how I feel inside
and to take your gentle hand
and to feel the real meaning of romance
on some impassioned Italian night.

And if kissing be it,
the magic that sparked it all,
that gives us this happiness
and makes the candle lit
and rekindle us if we fall.

What I Miss the Most

How often will you do this?
All I wanted was another year,
another kiss
from you.
Now what do I do?
I can't figure out

What I miss the most
is the way you used to look in my eyes.
And the times you'd hold me close
all through the night.
And what I hate the most
is everytime I cry.
Oh, oh, oh
Tell me why
Why'd we have to say goodbye.

How long will you keep me up
on top of the highest pedestal?
Haven't I suffered enough?
But you still won't give up.
You still won't give up.

What I miss the most
is the way you used to look in my eyes.
And the times you'd hold me close
all through the night.
And what I hate the most
is everytime I cry.
Oh, oh, oh
Tell me why
Why'd we have to say goodbye?

Love!
Has got the best of me.
Oh,oh,oh,oh
All that I need.
is you....
is you.

You Never

If you keep coming around,
it´ll be more difficult to say goodbye.
If I had known all that I know now
I would´ve been more sensible and nice.

You never expect to say goodbye.
You never want to say good night.
You never think that you would.
You never expect to wake up at night
and find that they´ve left your side.
You never want to cry
Cause they´ve been so good.

Oh,oh
if you could help me see
where I went wrong.
Cause I'm not sure exactly
where I belong.
Cause you haunt me in my dreams
but make a beautiful sleep for me.

You never want to say goodbye.
You never want to cry
cause you never want to lie...
for me.
And I never want to know
I never want to let go
Cause I never knew you loved me so...
tenderly.

You never,
you never
told me where you'd be
when you'd leave.
You never
you never
told me
if I would see...
you again.

What About Them?

Hey, what can I say
if they won't listen?
Let's talk about today.
It's our business.

I can't change their minds
(even if I try).
How can I make them see the light
(if it doesn't shine)?
I'm about myself and what's mine.
Forget about the rest of mankind.

But what about them?
They're hanging on the end of a limb.
How cruel we've all been.
What message are we trying to send?
Think about the children.
(Their chances are growing slim.)
What about them?

They're growing so
before my eyes.
I don't want to let go,
but soon you'll have to realize.

That
You can't start a fire
(without a flame).
If it doesn't have a desire
(it'll stay the same)
And you aren't the one to blame.
And you aren't the one to be shamed.

But what about them?
They're hanging on the end of a limb.
How cruel we've all been.
What message are we trying to send?
(Their chances are growing slim.)
What about them?

And what else is there to say?
What else can I do today?
This is a dangerous game we're trying to play.
We're lost in the dark and don't know our way.

STUPID KISSES

Why does the best always happen to her?
Is she life's favorite flower?
Why can't I forget this?
All it was was a kiss.

Hey, why don't you listen?
You're too busy to even pay attention!
Tell me
why did you give in?
Maybe I'm too stubborn to get it.
They're playing around in my head.
All of these stupid kisses!

I've grown so mad
ever since I realized you're not coming back.
But I don't have to blame you.
But I'm just stuck and don't know what to do.
I pray to God I wish I knew the truth.

Hey, why don't you listen?
You're too busy to even pay attention!
Tell me
why did you give in?
Maybe I'm too stubborn to get it.
They're playing around in my head.
All of those stupid kisses!

When I see you,
I see my life slip by.
I wish I could read your mind.
And be your type.
I think I've committed a crime.
I think I've crossed the line.
I wish I could turn back time.
Then you'd be mine-
All mine!

Hey, why didn't I listen?
I was too busy to even pay attention.
I ask,
why did I give in?
Maybe I'm too stubborn to get it.
All of these stupid kisses.
Have got me thinking about all you've said.
They're playing around in my head.
And I could have been the one getting all of these...
precious kisses instead.

So Personal

Too much going on.
How can we stay strong?
What's the meaning of this song
if you get the interpretation wrong?

Too much "he said, she said".
I think about it while laying in the bed.
Seeing them together makes me sick in the head.
I wish he loved me instead.

So confused from the past.
How long will this last?
Maybe I'm a step ahead and going too fast.
Maybe I have my hopes up too high for anyone to grasp.

Am I too hard on you?
I don't know what to do.
I'm too embarrassed to come to You.
Just help me through.

Oh, and how I love you.
Oh, and how I miss you.
Oh, and how I need You.
Oh, and how bad I want you.

So personal,
so personal.
I'm trying to be careful
not to blow my cover.
Cause you don't want to know what's up under.

Keeping It Together

Try hard as we might.
Try not to start a fight
cause I can't control myself.

Lost in a confusing light.
Just one slash of a knife
can be my source of harm or help.

Keeping it together
can be one of the hardest things to do
When we're together,
whenever I'm with you.
My little piece of heaven
has fallen through.
Oh,oh,oh,oh
Just keeping it together
has no chance of being soon.

Try hard as hell.
Try not to fail.
I can only do what I can.

But my mind is a boat without a sail.
I've gone crazy, can't you tell?
Tell me, do you understand?

I think I'm gonna go crazy (one of these days).
I think I'm gonna go crazy (totally insane).
I think I'm gonna go crazy (lost forever).
I think I'm gonna go crazy (tryna keep it together)!