Swimming In Hot Water

Have you ever experienced life as being a sea of hot water?
You were struggling and striving for your island
but it never came into view.

Have you ever felt like everyone was leaving you behind?
Like your mother didn't care,
your father acted like he wasn't there,
and you were pushed into the room of tears?

At times you'd wish life was just a game
where it didn't matter if you won or lost.
But life was reality and not a dream
where you could just wake up and be alright.

Did you ever see yourself drowning in hot water?
Running from something (not chasing you).
Not being with someone ( when you wanted to).
Not be able to do what you desire to do.
Gasping for breath and it not coming through.

But then through the steam and lost dreams
comes a raft.

A raft of faith, security, love, and peace

you've been dying for and now have.

Life doesn't have to be a miserable sea.
It can be a sunset at the beach.
Then you'll see
swimming in hot water isn't so bad.

What I Want

I am certain.
There's no doubt.
When you lift the curtain
you see what it's all about.

Beautiful,
pretty ones
lead this world to the Sun.

Wishing to be perfect-
if only I could see
someone who has it like me.
I want you,
but I wonder if it's true-
is this ... what I want?

Heavy beauty is what they say
makes a girl who she is today.

When they pass me they just stare.
Laughing- not caring who's there.
If only I could have my way.

Is this really, is this really me?

Is this what I want?
Is this what I want?
No, this isn't what I want.

Nowhere To Go

I've been hitting hard
hoping things won't fall apart
but here they go again.

If you want the truth
ever since I lost you
you've taught me things I've never known.
When I'm down and full with doubt
will I spend another day without you?
Or I'll have nowhere to go.

When time runs out
& life has left me behind.
And I can't figure it out-
why I hurt inside?
I am guilty.
My foolish play
has left me no choice
'til this day.

And I've been wondering around
hoping things will change.
but I can see now
we'll just fade again.

Nowhere, nowhere, nowhere.
Take me somewhere, somewhere, somewhere.
Or I'll have nowhere to go.

Erase

If I could be more careful with my mistakes.
If I could follow rules that I couldn't break.
If I'd fall asleep
I wouldn't wake
I wouldn't wake up, no.

If I could erase
what I said
that hurt you
that burned you
I would.
If I could retrace
what I did
that choked you
and broke you
I would.

If I could
I would
If I could
I would
you know I would.

Let's Hold Hands

I see someone in the mirror
who doesn't look like me.

They have brown eyes & black hair.
You're asking who could I possibly see.

I see a girl of different colors.
I see a boy that loves others.

So can we be together forever?
Let's hold hands, let's hold hands.
Can't we all get along?
Let's hold hands, let's hold hands
before forever's gone.

I see somebody across the street
who doesn't act like me.

They have a Swedish accent
and seem mighty fair.
Who could I mean?

I see a nation of different colors
but I wanna see a nation that loves another.

Before time leaves, before time leaves.
Before we'll never have a chance-
let's hold hands.

Broken Is Fair

You
oh, you took my dreams and left out the door.
You
oh, you
could have been something more
than just who you were.
Than just how you occured.

Broken is fair
when my dreams are shattered
nothing matters.
'cause you don't care
whether lives are played
mistakes are made
I swear,
when with you
broken is fair.

I
Yes, I
don't have to listen to what you have to say.
I
Yes, I rather spoil away
and I will.
Now, I will.

Broken is fair
broken dreams lie there on the floor.
You really don't care
if broken heart lie there
while you walk out the door.

Locked Up

There's no way
that you can get in.
I'm locked away
within.
I'm sorry
you could never get around.
I'm sorry
things never flew.
They'd just fall down.
And there's no way
that you can get in.
It's hard to say
but I'm locked within.

Nobody can talk to me.
Somebody threw away the key.
I'm locked up, yeah.
Nobody can answer me.
Somebody's afraid to speak
I'm locked up, yeah.

I apologize
you could never get through.
I apologize
everyone has to suffer too.

I'm locked up
but I don't blame you.
I don't blame the world.
I blame the girl in the mirror.
She's in the mirror.

It's a Bad Time

What's a laugh
when everybody cries ?
Will the truth help
to kill all the lies?
And will you be alive
when everybody dies?

It's a bad time
to lie up in my face.
It's a bad time
to run
and run
and leave without a trace.
It's a bad time
to give up
when you're almost there...
cause you're almost there.

What's the Sun for
when the rain is in control?
Why must you be deprived
when all you need is a hand hold?
Will you catch me when I fall?
Or will you leave me and never help at all?

It's a bad time.

Your Head Held High

Young boy
young girl,
who are you?
You're a soldier in a war.
You have unhealed wounds
and your clothes are torn.
But you can make a life
if you just...

Keep your head held high.
Don't let life pass you by.
Keep your head held high.
Don't let your dreams go
or have them to die.
Keep your head held high.
I can't say that enough
with all the being so tough.
Just keep your head held high.

Hated Love

I'm tired of seeing broken glass
and blood running down my face.
A real prisoner of my life and lost in this place.
As simple as it can be,
I don't want to fight anymore.
He just lost all he had
and it's something I'm not gonna care for.

But as long as the birds fly
and the Sun rises in the East.
So why should I settle for less than least.
So I'll listen to the One above.
I'll sit and pray for the one that loves hated love.

He'd laughed as he hit me
as I cried in pain.
He'd smile in dry warmth
as I frowned in rain.
As life goes on,
so I live in misery.
I'd thought to go on
but he has captured me.

People Outside

This poem is dedicated to the wonderful people of Evaton, South
Africa- Nappy

The people outside desperately want to get in.
The people outside eagerly want to win.

Will this world help at all?

The people
the people outside can't fight from the pain.
the people
the people outside can't hide from the rain.
the people
the people outside
don't know what to say.
they're outside
they're outside today.

I'm a Weeping Willow

I'm a weeping willow for you.
I have tears on my pillow thanks to you.
You're the only one I'd give up the sun on rainy days
or forever be lost than to ever find my way.

I'm a weeping willow.
I've cried more than you'll ever smile.
I'm a weeping willow
yet I love you
and that's how, that's how
I live.

It's you I want
and it's you I've got
in my branches
can't you see?

I'm a weeping willow for you.
I've cried more than you've smiled.
It's true.

Left Alone

Everytime you walk away
I start to cry myself away.
People tell me to leave you behind
but they don't know how I feel.
They say I'm just wasting time
but they're too illusional to know what's real.

I don't wanna be left alone
here to die.
I'll have you
no matter how much I deprive.
I don't wanna be left alone without you.
My heart will be broken.
The love will be stolen.
...and be left alone.

You see how many people don't make it.
You see how many people try to fake it.
Don't you leave me here naked.

Let me breathe.
Let me breathe.
Let me breathe.
Let me breathe.

I'll Cry

I'll cry
if you don't.
I'll cry
if you won't.

If you don't come back.
I don't want to live like that.

I'll cry
you know I would
like the rain around me.
I'll cry
you know I could
if there's no one to give me a way.
Everytime you're gone.
Everytime you're away.
I'll cry.

Have It All

I guess you could have anything.
I guess you would do anything.
So what do I do now?

I guess you could have it all.
I never wanted anyway.
If you could have something
you could have anything at all.
I never thought of it as much,
now it's gone.
Everything.

I guess you'd know everything to say
to make me change my mind.
I guess you control me somehow
to make me jump over the line.

Tryin'

If I could stop the rain from fallin'
and make the sun come out.
Make the birds fly
I wouldn't mind tryin' now.
And if I could stop myself from cryin'
and make a smile
you know I wouldn't mind tryin'
No, I wouldn't mind tryin' it out.

I'm trying to make a difference
and now I can make it.
I'm to make a change
this habit I'm trying to break.
And now I can't fake it.

Dusty

Rose pedals on the floor.
Secret love letters slide under the door
Romantic movies on the screen
Too bad this is just another dream.

'Cause you never took the time to realize how I felt.

Dusty
more dusty than ever before.
Dusty
more dusty I'm sure
that even through all this
you, I won't miss
Dusty, all dusty.

Why won't you get it?
Just forget it.
regret that we ever were.
the love we have is dusty
more dusty than ever before
I'm sure.