Friday, December 03, 2004

Swimming In Hot Water

Have you ever experienced life as being a sea of hot water?
You were struggling and striving for your island
but it never came into view.

Have you ever felt like everyone was leaving you behind?
Like your mother didn't care,
your father acted like he wasn't there,
and you were pushed into the room of tears?

At times you'd wish life was just a game
where it didn't matter if you won or lost.
But life was reality and not a dream
where you could just wake up and be alright.

Did you ever see yourself drowning in hot water?
Running from something (not chasing you).
Not being with someone ( when you wanted to).
Not be able to do what you desire to do.
Gasping for breath and it not coming through.

But then through the steam and lost dreams
comes a raft.
A raft of faith, security, love, and peace
you've been dying for and now have.

Life doesn't have to be a miserable sea.
It can be a sunset at the beach.
Then you'll see
swimming in hot water isn't so bad.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

What I Want

I am certain.
There's no doubt.
When you lift the curtain
you see what it's all about.

Beautiful,
pretty ones
lead this world to the Sun.

Wishing to be perfect-
if only I could see
someone who has it like me.
I want you,
but I wonder if it's true-
is this ... what I want?

Heavy beauty is what they say
makes a girl who she is today.

When they pass me they just stare.
Laughing- not caring who's there.
If only I could have my way.

Is this really, is this really me?

Is this what I want?
Is this what I want?
No, this isn't what I want.